Oh its been some time now hasn't it!!!

Hey, where did November go? Ummmmmm..

Well this month was full of fun activities. I found some new bands. Actually, november was a time for musical discovery. Probably during the beginning of summer, a lot of things began to change. I had some very emotionally rude awakenings that made me think about what I was doing with my life. I had an "oh shit" moment, because the last time I had had an "Oh shit" moment I shrugged it off. God saw fit that I should have another "Oh shit" moment and so I think I began to listen this time.

In listening, I started needing to re-establish myself, get some bearings, by some new shoes, find a new path, put on a new CD, pick out a new book, get a new face, learn some new words, eat a little better, and otherwise, make a turn for the better. So I did alot of those things, and I picked up a lot of new voices.

When I say voices, I mean I picked up some new objects, or people, or books, or anything that spoke to my heart. I was looking for something to talk to me spiritually or metaphysically different than before. I picked up some new voices that alot of my friends liked that I hadn't really paid attention to. I picked up the Avett brothers, more bright eyes, Manchester orchestra, Right away great captain, M. Ward, Rocky Votalato, came back to Iron and Wine, Elvis Costello. I just looked for things that spoke softly. That didn't scream at me.

In in almost 24 years, I had grown accustom to intensity. Intense music, intense hair and clothing styles, intense concepts, and intense feelings of anxiety. But you can only take that for so long, and it was time to begin to let that stuff go. So there you go, now I'm back to where I was two paragraphs ago.

It's all about finding solace, and making yourself a better person than you were yesterday. Boy it sure gets tough sometimes doesn't it? It's tough because we get easily caught in thinking, "Well I'm doin better than so and so" Well, yeah you are, but if they're goin down hill, then so are you. You gotta make your own personal goals and stick to them!!

When it comes to where I am now, there are some things I wish I could just skip. I wish I could just skip college, have all the knowledge that you need after you finish your degree, and I wish I was in my career! I'm 25, and I have no career, which is slightly depressing. Only because Im now 7 years out of high school... I had 3 years to screw around to figure out what I wanted to do, and then in the last 4 years I shoulda been done with school. Here I am now just barely getting concerned on where I'm gonna transfer...

But you can't get caught in that feeling for too long. Anyways, So in November I went to a few shows (FINALLY!!!) I made a new friend who loves concerts as much as I do, so now I'll have a concert buddy once again. I saw Colour Revolt and Circa Survive. Colour Revolt has been very inspiring to me lately because they're writing the sort of stuff I wanna write. If we did a percentage of how their style matched the way I wanted to do my music, then we are 75% percent compatable! I completely love their music and want to do what they do, but throw in some piano, some different instruments like violin, brass, etc like they do in The Dear Hunter, and then maybe some reverb, delay, atmospheric stuff they do in Circa Survive, and you've got what I want!!!!

My brother is getting married this coming month, and I'm goin to So-Cal!!! HIGH FIVES!! Very excited to see my fam. It's been a very long time since I've seen them all, so I'm very excited for that. Mitch is getting married so props to him and steph for hoppin on the marriage train. I'm sure we'll dance and party and go crazy. My good friend Sugar will be accompanying me, so it will be great to have to her to laugh at everyone we see.

Oh I dunno. I went to bed at like 9 last night, which was too early because I woke up with a headache this morning. That wasn't very cool I thought. But whatever. Anyways... this is more of an update post I guess.